Do you ever feel like poison?

[u/HistoricalInjury9754]

Do you ever feel like poison? Like everything you touch becomes infected with your “badness”? I feel that way whether it be relationship, friendship, or something that I get involved with. I feel like I destroy everything around me, almost like the universe is working against me no matter what I do. And I really don’t know what to do about it. I think I must’ve done something really bad in this life or a past life.

[u/idespisemyhondacrv]

I don’t even have BPD but j 1000% feel this. How do I get diagnosed lol

[u/Responsible-Round452 → u/idespisemyhondacrv]

Admit yourself

[u/idespisemyhondacrv → u/Responsible-Round452]

To a ward???? Absolutely not

[u/80sblackguy → u/idespisemyhondacrv]

Best way to do it :/

It's one of the most serious personality disorders someone can have, so it takes a lot to get a diagnosis

[u/idespisemyhondacrv → u/80sblackguy]

Fuuuuuck I cannot afford to do that lol, I guess I’ll just not get diagnosed

[u/Responsible-Round452 → u/idespisemyhondacrv]

I can't really speak to it because I'm in Oregon and the healthcare is totally different and fucked in general

[u/idespisemyhondacrv → u/Responsible-Round452]

I’m in Texas it’s probably worse here

[u/Responsible-Round452 → u/idespisemyhondacrv]

Probably