r/BPD • u/MeasurementDeep user has bpd • 11h ago

❓Question Post Does anyone else cry randomly?

A few times a year depending on how good things are going or if I’m distracted enough, I’ll have days where I just cry, and I mean full body sobs where I feel like I can’t do anything else at all but cry.

Today is one of those days, I woke up and just felt this weight in my chest and now I’m crying for anything and everything. My mom called me and just said “hey how are you doing?” And I started sobbing. My boyfriend wanted to try and get to the root of what it could be but I don’t have any actual reason to cry right now. I’m alone, no one is bothering me or anything I’m just…. Sad.

Does this happen to anyone else? I feel crazy

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u/Available-Studio-164 9h ago

All the time :(

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u/thatangelchimere user has bpd 9h ago

daily

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u/lovelyangeltears user has bpd 3h ago

yes

For me it’s usually not “random” in the sense of coming from nowhere, but it feels random because my emotions are so intense (BPD + bipolar + INFP sensitivity) that small shifts inside me can overflow suddenly. I can’t always name the cause right away, sometimes it’s loneliness, sometimes shame, sometimes just a vague emptiness, but my body reacts before my mind catches up. I cry over feelings, not events. For example, I might burst into tears because I feel invisible, or because I suddenly realize I miss someone, or even because a song makes me feel both beauty and sadness at once

And since I’m not ashamed of strong feelings (at least not always), I don’t try super hard to stop it. So yes, I have crying spells, sometimes multiple times in a week, sometimes several times in a day, especially during my depressive or dysregulated phases

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u/MeasurementDeep user has bpd 1h ago

I think after reading your comment that it might’ve been loneliness, I have been feeling pretty isolated recently, I guess I got so used to feeling that way I didn’t realize how much it was taking its toll on me.

Also I just realized that a certain date is coming up and my mind was probably already aware of it.

Thank you for your comment it gave me a moment to reflect on what the cause might’ve been