I am nothing

[u/Prudent-Slide-8244]

Im 20 f Currently, I am at work on my 30 minute break. I just took a box cutter to my wrist, but it’s so dual it didn’t even do anything, I feel like I am nothing. I am no one. Feel like I’m in a simulation. I feel so unheard by everyone around me I feel as though I was meant to not be here , I lost myself and idk when

[u/01_Pleiades]

I feel the same often especially since I was a rape baby so I understand completely but please do not hurt yourself, it won’t make the pain go away and it won’t make you feel better about your own existence later. It will eventually cause you to hate yourself even more, and you need to know now that you’re not broken. In pain and alone and that’s okay, go lay in the grass once you’re off and stare at the sky for a little while, eventually it will help calm you.

[u/animeistheog]

I lost myself and idk when is so real. I had a breakdown this morning and literally laughed thru my sobs that were so hard and heavy I felt like I couldn’t breathe. It’s almost ironic how much nothing I am. It’s like I’m in a simulation stuck in a world of people who don’t get it. Who don’t understand the real pain and isolation and sometimes insanity that you deal with having this disorder. How it feels like I’m stuck and will never be able to stop doing why I’m doing. I understand. You aren’t alone. No advice here I’m going thru the same thing but just stick with it. 

[u/Your_mum6969420]

i dont have any advice, im in the same boat, sorry to hear that youre going through this too

[u/Born-Ad-12WL]

I have bad news for you and the user who commented first … you are both something to someone.

That being me.

I know I’m a complete stranger, but I hear y’all. I see y’all’s words and I relate to those words on a spiritual level.

It’s hard. And I wish there was something more I could do, but let’s be real there is not.

However, I humbly extend my hand to y’all and hope you see that for ( frankly goofy ass mofo online) y’all are very much heard.

Dm is open. Take care, comrades.

[u/Apriori00]

I’m really sorry you’re feeling this much pain. Your safety is the #1 priority so if these thoughts turn into even more, please reach out for help.

I can relate to how you feel. I feel pretty empty because all I have is grad school and no life outside of that. I don’t really know who I am, I don’t have any friends or hobbies, and I feel like I constantly embarrass myself because being isolated has destroyed any social skills.

On the surface, life has gotten better for me because I’m not going in and out of treatment centers and I’m in grad school, but I still don’t feel that well.