r/BPD • u/Prudent-Slide-8244 • 16h ago

❓Question Post I am nothing

Im 20 f Currently, I am at work on my 30 minute break. I just took a box cutter to my wrist, but it’s so dual it didn’t even do anything, I feel like I am nothing. I am no one. Feel like I’m in a simulation. I feel so unheard by everyone around me I feel as though I was meant to not be here , I lost myself and idk when

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u/animeistheog 15h ago

I lost myself and idk when is so real. I had a breakdown this morning and literally laughed thru my sobs that were so hard and heavy I felt like I couldn’t breathe. It’s almost ironic how much nothing I am. It’s like I’m in a simulation stuck in a world of people who don’t get it. Who don’t understand the real pain and isolation and sometimes insanity that you deal with having this disorder. How it feels like I’m stuck and will never be able to stop doing why I’m doing. I understand. You aren’t alone. No advice here I’m going thru the same thing but just stick with it.