r/BPD • u/Prudent-Slide-8244 • 16h ago
❓Question Post I am nothing
Im 20 f Currently, I am at work on my 30 minute break. I just took a box cutter to my wrist, but it’s so dual it didn’t even do anything, I feel like I am nothing. I am no one. Feel like I’m in a simulation. I feel so unheard by everyone around me I feel as though I was meant to not be here , I lost myself and idk when
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u/Apriori00 user has bpd 11h ago
I’m really sorry you’re feeling this much pain. Your safety is the #1 priority so if these thoughts turn into even more, please reach out for help.
I can relate to how you feel. I feel pretty empty because all I have is grad school and no life outside of that. I don’t really know who I am, I don’t have any friends or hobbies, and I feel like I constantly embarrass myself because being isolated has destroyed any social skills.
On the surface, life has gotten better for me because I’m not going in and out of treatment centers and I’m in grad school, but I still don’t feel that well.