How did bpd develop for you

[u/Wordsarewrittenhere]

I’m in my early 20s and I’m noticing a huge difference in my mood I’ve always been an extremely anxious person and later diagnosed with adhd. (Family history I’m adopted all I know is my mom had severe mental illness and couldn’t take care of us) recently for about a year I’ve developed an eating disorder extreme depressive episodes but then the next day I feel great (not like best day of my life but “normal” happy). Recently I’ve been consistently going through the cycle of extreme anxiety/depression/suicidal thoughts/ randomly angry and then back to normal. I’ve also just been feeling overall empty and sometimes I start dissociating or feeling like my adopted family don’t truly care for me like I’m a fake. My sister said that apparently out biomother developed whatever it is she had in her mid 20s however I’m told by others that she’s always been that way. What were signs you started to notice in the beginning.

[u/cooldudeman007]

Childhood was hard but also fun, being a teenager was worse, early adulthood hit like a truck. 17-24 was a chaos I never could’ve expected growing up.

I would look into vulnerability factors and how they explain low mood and irritability, and also give us options of how to help feel better on the regular.

this article isn’t bad

[u/Wordsarewrittenhere → u/cooldudeman007]

Thank you, the article has some really good ideas that I’m going to try to work on

[u/Herestor]

I don't know if this counts but for me I would pinpoint it on my mother and family not being present in my early stages of development while also making me think what I was feeling or doing was incorrect or that I was doing something wrong. I notice myself not having an opinion on anything in general and only wait until someone else says something where I can then latch onto. I am a blank slate that copies and I have no real sense of what I like or feel. That's where I knew something was off

[u/MidwestMeadows00]

BPD is known to peak in early adulthood! (18-25)