Mind reading???

[u/Extreme-Time6052]

Like the title says. Let me elaborate. I’m not sure if this is actually a BPD thing, but I’m extremely paranoid all the time that people are either talking about me, watching me or thinking about me, or even following me, but always in a negative way. So I feel like I can “read” people’s minds about what they might be thinking of me. That I’m lame, that I’m annoying, that I’m boring or anything of the sort. However, I know, rationally, that this is far from the truth. And friends, family and people in general mostly say positive things about me. But I can’t help it, it’s stronger than me. I have to say I’ve been in therapy for years, also I’m on medication, I mean I’m working hard on myself, however, this idiot disorder is just so much to handle, that sometimes I feel I’m losing the battle. Anyways does anyone feel the same way?

[u/Available-Studio-164]

I will literally be taking out the trash and get a thought that the elderly neighbor across the street is thinking this or that about me and it’s just not rational and I can understand that but it is frustrating that my brain can’t just be normal