Need help dealing with life

[u/nyxx4s]

CW for mild suicadal ideology. To start this off i am 18m with bpd, ocd, and a bunch of other trauma stuff. Im at the stage in life where im now expected to start functioning on my own but its really hard, i find it hard to have motivation to get out of bed or continue life every day and i DONT want to be feeling like this. I go to therapy once or twice a month, i used to take medication regularily and i get out and do stuff but the feeling of just wanting it to end never goes away even if everything in my life is stable or even great. Posting here for any/all personal tips or motivations that you guys use, i want to get better and i want to love life so im trying everything i can