Does anyone else have a sx addiction that gets heavily triggered by depressive episodes? Like all of a sudden its so bad that you have no standards anymore. Like u literally just want something sexual asap. Even when i don’t actually feel like it and don’t wanna do it ?

Do you ever feel like poison? Like everything you touch becomes infected with your “badness”? I feel that way whether it be relationship, friendship, or something that I get involved with. I feel like I destroy everything around me, almost like the universe is working against me no matter what I do. And I really don’t know what to do about it. I think I must’ve done something really bad in this life or a past life.

I'm curious who you reach out to in a crisis? Do they respond to you? What strategies do you have if they don't answer or can't help you?

I'm fine. I have access to antianxiety meds. Still not what I would like.

I couldn't sleep at all, and my thoughts kept looping on an imaginary argument. It was making me super angry and overwhelmed. So, I grabbed an ice cube from the freezer and held it until I calmed down.

This never worked for me previously. I feel like I just made a mini breakthrough. :)

Hi, I’m struggling with feeling really alone lately. sometimes it’s hard to stay afloat, even when I’m trying. Just wanted to reach out and say… I’m here, I’m trying, and I could use some support.

Im 20 f Currently, I am at work on my 30 minute break. I just took a box cutter to my wrist, but it’s so dual it didn’t even do anything, I feel like I am nothing. I am no one. Feel like I’m in a simulation. I feel so unheard by everyone around me I feel as though I was meant to not be here , I lost myself and idk when

When you hate everybody. Ooooh I hate myself, but it's not like I'm special. I just always have to be around myself. I'm so mad at us all for allowing the world to be this way. I've never known a good person (just some who were skilled at looking like one) so why should I believe they exist?

Am I way too "sensitive" or does anyone else also feel dismissed/invalidated when they're expressing emotions and gets hit with one of these:

Emotional - Dramatic - Overdramatic - Overreacting - Calm down - Grow up - Let it go - Sensitive - It's not that big of a deal - Why are you always like this?

A few times a year depending on how good things are going or if I’m distracted enough, I’ll have days where I just cry, and I mean full body sobs where I feel like I can’t do anything else at all but cry.

Today is one of those days, I woke up and just felt this weight in my chest and now I’m crying for anything and everything. My mom called me and just said “hey how are you doing?” And I started sobbing. My boyfriend wanted to try and get to the root of what it could be but I don’t have any actual reason to cry right now. I’m alone, no one is bothering me or anything I’m just…. Sad.

Does this happen to anyone else? I feel crazy

Like the title says. Let me elaborate. I’m not sure if this is actually a BPD thing, but I’m extremely paranoid all the time that people are either talking about me, watching me or thinking about me, or even following me, but always in a negative way. So I feel like I can “read” people’s minds about what they might be thinking of me. That I’m lame, that I’m annoying, that I’m boring or anything of the sort. However, I know, rationally, that this is far from the truth. And friends, family and people in general mostly say positive things about me. But I can’t help it, it’s stronger than me. I have to say I’ve been in therapy for years, also I’m on medication, I mean I’m working hard on myself, however, this idiot disorder is just so much to handle, that sometimes I feel I’m losing the battle. Anyways does anyone feel the same way?

I feel like my heart has been ripped right out of my chest and I feel like I’m dying. It was a very sudden breakup and I didn’t get a chance to see it coming. She fell out of love with me. She was my FP.

I have been shaking and sobbing all day nonstop. It feels like this will never end. I can’t believe this finally happened and I didn’t prepare for it.

How do I survive this? Can I even survive this?

Its like if I dont like a guy I dont want anything else in life. Even if I have everything in life I will b unhappy. Its very difficult for me to like a guy as well. Even if try to be happy with my self I end up wanting a guy, especially when I see other people in relationships or if I’m with close friends.

Im not as reminded of it if I’m jus around people that I’m not super close with or if they r not a couple. Whenever I’m with someone like a friend or family I seek deep intimacy from something else.

I feel like I dont care about anything in life unless theres a guy. I get turned off by guys very fast as well so I’m stuck in this catch 22 situation for some time now and I want advice.

I having a panic atack right now and i dont wanna disturb my bf that IS in his college right now. Can someone listen to me venting, i'm having a horrível day and i'm scarred that i'm gonna do something wrong

I'm not sure what I do that's so wrong, I've made a lot of new friends this year and they all are already starting to ghost me. I'm a college freshman and already one week in and my friends are hanging out without me behind my back and talking about me the main girl keeps saying about me being gay behind my back and asking if I'm gay and stuff.

I've only ever had what I would consider an all-consuming, genuine FP a few times in my life. In almost all of those cases, they wound up being shitty people and it was something I was able to move past.

My last FP started pulling away from me in about April 2024 after nearly 2 years of all day every day contact. From April until November spoke on and off and we have been completely no contact since November. While he did really hurt me, he wasn't a bad/abusive/manipulative person the way my former FPs were and I'm having an incredibly hard time getting past it.

I understand his reasons for pulling away, and I know it was probably for the best for both of us, but I can easily say I've never been heartbroken for this long in my entire life (I'm turning 34 in October).

I went through many, many weird phases of moods and behaviours in the past nearly 1.5 years as I try to get past this, and it got to the point where I was so concerned by my own hehaviour and feelings that I finally started therapy at the beginning of this year.

Therapy has helped a lot, I've healed a lot and gotten a better handle on my behaviour and unhealthy coping strategies. I can now occasionally go a day or two without thinking about him, and there's even times where I'm now able to think about him without feeling my heart drop, so I know I'm healing but....

Sometimes it is just so rough. I still find myself crying over him. I still find myself searching for him in other people. I wonder about him constantly. I've tried every method imaginable healthy and unhealthy to fill the hole left in my life and my heart from him and nothing has worked.

I don't really know what the point of this post is aside from getting it off my chest to people who maybe understand, as I'm missing him extra tonight.

Basically what the title says! I’m curious if anyone in this sub is poly? Especially if you’re in a poly relationship or have been. Any advice you would give? How do you even manage it??

This Is Dedicated To Someone Who's Been In My Life The Last 7-8 Months Someone Who's Seen Me At My Absolute Worse During My Flair Ups And Still Chooses To Stay With Me...

Thank You For Being My Light When I Feel Trapped In-Between My Flair Ups And Pulling Me Back Into Reality!

I can handle your BPD Until the words "I hate you" Match the words "I love you"

I can handle your BPD Until the lines between Wanting to get better And getting worse get blurred

I can handle your BPD Until I push you away And pull you right back gets exhausting

I can handle your BPD Until the constant splitting

I can handle your BPD Until you can never be at peace When your not around because I drown myself with thoughts and fear of abandonment

I can handle your BPD Until the chaos gets overwhelming

I can handle your BPD Until the compliments you give are never accepted/appreciated because they are just saw as criticism or lies

I can handle your BPD Until you physically can't take it anymore because of extreme jealousy over past experiences of loves

I can handle your BPD Until the day comes when you've had enough and you can't anymore

Im not sure if this is my BPD or not, but lately ive just been extremely anxious with and without my partner. On calls, I just have this constant anxiety, my head is screaming that hes cheating or that hes about to leave and I just ask for reassurance..over...and over..and over...and over. To the point it gets irritating. Every single day and almost every minute I have this gnawing anxiety, and it keeps bubbling up into meltdowns. I hate to be like that, but I genuinely feel like im about to be abandoned lately, I sob all day, and then when im with him its like im hurting him. I dont want to be replaced, and I dont want to keep being this burden to him.

What do I do? What do I tell myself? How do I calm down? Is this my BPD?

I already have extremely bad anxiety and low self esteem. I care WAY too much about people talking about me/making fun of me. If I leave the room, I secretly look to see if my coworkers or anyone I know is talking about me once I leave the room. If I see someone laughing with someone else I always think the worst and put scenarios in my head about what they are laughing about/talking about which I think is always about me whether or not it’s true. I don’t leave the room at work because I know once I do (in my head) that my co workers will immediately talk about me. If I find out somehow that someone IS making fun of me/laughing at me, it’s literally like I’m getting stabbed in the heart physically and emotionally. Right then and there I just want to die and be left alone so I can cry and hate on myself even more. There’s waaay more things I could say but there’s just too many to say in one post

three years ago i was on here as i burnt the bridges in my life and ended up alone.. a two to three year cycle it seems.

and now ive done it again. i didnt mean to. dear God i didnt mean to. i tried so hard to not burn my bridges but somehow… fuck FUCK 😁

has anyone ever found a dbt skill, quote, thought reframe… anything that broke this cycle

its me. i tried to make it better i made it worse. i lost people by trying to not lose them (again)

why cant i be normal why why

how do you do it? i just found out and i feel so betrayed and somewhat offended though i don’t know why. i have a REALLY bad problem with possessiveness. it ruins my relationships as the moment i find out you have a person that i realize you may favor more than me i automatically go into competition with them and it becomes a fight for attention and eventually i begin to attempt to isolate that person. i feel like i’m going insane, i just don’t get why she’d do this to me after i thought we were on the same page. now i think she hates me and that there must be something wrong with me why she’d choose someone else over me. in just a matter of minutes i feel as if my life has lost all its meaning i don’t even see the point in staying alive now what’s the point if she has someone else. this is always the case. there is ALWAYS someone else someone else always has to end up in the picture. i can never just have someone to myself and that isn’t a lot to ask for so i don’t know why this happens to me so much. what should i do and how do i cope with this? i don’t want to do anything bad again.

she was my everything in the sense where i did almost everything for her approval i was living solely for her and i had no issue with that because my life had gotten some form of meaning and it was to impress her and get her to like me as much as i like her..now what..

I used to gaf way too much and would flip out on partners or people I was seeing on how long it took them to reply. Constantly overthinking everything. It strained all my relationships and I ruined them all. Well recently after a lot of stuff that went down they put me on lithium (mainly for my mood disorder) but I noticed I'm getting intrusive thoughts like RARELY. It's helped me learn to calm down and do my coping skills. Now? I'm about to go on a date with a guy I like quite a bit (but I gotta meet him in person first to know), he replies slowly cause his job has him busy a lot, and I just don't care. Like do your job don't worry about replying immediately. I can tell he really likes me, he always feels really bad for replying late. That's something that would've caused me to split and freak out ages ago, but I can't see myself freaking out like I used to from those intrusive thoughts telling me he hates me.

Basically what the title says. I guess I just want to know how my fellow people with BPD tell if they're being gaslit, or if they're just splitting on someone. I have a friend who constantly makes me feel like I'm going crazy and I often feel like I have to hide from them. Some people have told me that it's gaslighting, but with the way my brain works, it's so hard to tell. What are your personal ways of differentiating being gaslit from regular BPD stuff?