Yearning so bad I found comfort in grieving

[u/Lxrakamo]

My routine consists of distractions now ever since I had to say goodbye. Sports. Martial arts. Watching more YouTube than I normally should, but even while watching it, my body aches so bad where I don’t cry but it’s unbearable. So I go and downloaded TikTok again because somehow the algorithm on there is always sad videos that make me cry the second I watch them, which feels better than not crying and my heart aching. My whole body. My head keeps having this pressure headache all over. I don’t know, but crying and writing about him just feels better.

Maybe because grief is the only thing I have left of him.

[u/MissBrokenCapillary]

🫂😇