Okay so this might sound like a bit weird but I’m completely healthy even though I don’t think I am and often convince myself I’m not, my doctors have done every check and said I’m completely fine. However when I look at people or talk to people, in my head I’m thinking ‘I’m so jealous, your so healthy’ and I wish I was like them, even though I am as healthy as them, and don’t even know what they are going through .I can’t stop seeing through the lens of a sick person and I want to know if anyone gets this as-well, or why I get this, because it quite strange to be envious of something you have .

For me, it’s usually a week or so until i feel another “symptom” of something else 🙃

I know if I stopped googling then I wouldn’t have this awful anxiety, but how do you actually do that? It’s like it’s stronger than me and I feel for my own safety I need to google. Nothing good ever comes of it as it just causes more anxiety which in turn causes physical symptoms for me.

Would love if you shared your thoughts!