I think apollo send me something in dream on what trickster looks like? I had been curious lately.

[u/SeraphinaValeriana]

Well i had dream lol the sun was shining literally from the heavens, but still, I could look at it and not get blinded or hurt my eyes. The light was soft and calm, almost like it was protecting me, and thats when I thought that maybe it was none other than Lord Apollo himself.

Another character came into the scene to my mind. Initially, he looked like a man in white with beautiful and expensive gold jewelry. He said that he was Helios, but I still felt that something was off. What I think of as Helios has always been that of a grandfather personality, not someone who would ask me out. Once I had told him that I was a lesbian, the figure turned into a woman and started trying to lure me into a relationship.

I was overwhelmed with guilt and confusion when I tried to deny it as I knew this was actually the truth in my heart. In our shared apparition, we even had drawings, but I tried to escape by ripping them to pieces. At the moment of the escape, the sky was full of tranquil clouds, although the sun was half-occluded it was still shining through. Pineapples represented freedom were everywhere.

Later, I actually went back, looked at that person and said: "Who are you?" His response was, “I am nameless, I am dead.”

That was the moment I saw it this was not Helios, not Apollo, not any true god. It was a nameless trickster spirit. And I think that Apollo let me see this in my dream so that I would learn how to recognize what is real and what is false.