r/Journaling • u/Late_Sentence_2965 • 6h ago
Reading older journals are making me sad, regretful and shocked
I have recently been reading a few of my older journals from 2002 - 2005. I was between 14 and 18 back then. I have long time not taken a look into these journals as they were at my parent's house. They gave them back to me only a few months ago.
Of course, I still remember what I was going through during that time but it was more like a blurred memory. Reading my specific thoughts, I was shocked- There are lots of entries full of hatred - against myself, my parents, even my friends, self-pity and harmful thoughts. I was also anorexic (and probably depressed) during that time and no one even noticed.
Of course, I know that these struggles are - at least kind of - normal when you are young. But after reading those journals I feel so sad. I started reading them bc I thought it would be funny to dive into those old memories - but now I am simply shocked and devastated.
Has anyone made this experience too when reading older journals?