This past Thursday I (39F) had a transvag ultrasound because I’ve been having constant, but varying, levels of pelvic abdominal pain along with hair loss, fatigue, back pain (I also have a herniated lower back disk so this was hard to discern), frequent urination, bowel issues, nausea, etc… and they found two massive complex masses (both highly vascular and rated O-RADS 5), one in each of my ovaries. According to the CT on Friday evening, the left is 11.3 x 9.6 x 10.0 cm, and the right is 7.9 x 5.5 x 7.2 cm. CA-125 is 123 U/ml and I was supposed to hear from gyn-oncology on Friday, but I didn’t. CT doesn’t show any signs of spread, which is definitely relieving, but both radiologists have indicated a very high possibility both masses are malignant.
It being a long weekend I’m just at home, in pain, and left alone to wonder about everything coming. My sister suggested I name the masses, and my first thought was Pain and Panic, like from Disney’s Hercules, and it’s so true in so many ways. All the pain and panic.
I just need to share with people who’ve been there, but how quickly do things like surgeries go? Especially with large masses inside ovaries? I know it depends on the health system, but I also know my CT was STAT and it seems like my gyn clinic team was panicking and rushing things, so will Oncology rush too?
(Side note: seeing my gyno go from not worried at all to panic has been a bit amusing considering how calm she’s been about it not “seeming gynecological.”)
I’ve been complaining for ages about all my (vague) symptoms and I just got the whole “you’re a woman and getting older” shit. But my brain can’t decide between anger, depression, or anxiety.
I just don’t know what to do with myself. I’m so tired but too worried to rest.