r/Purpose • u/mrstark2060 • 4h ago
Losing passion for video editing, finding it in YouTube + course creation, but worried about sustainability
I’m 31 now and in an odd place with my career. For most of my 20s, video editing was both my career and my passion. I made good money at it, and for a long time I thought the skillset itself was the thing I loved. But over the past few years, I’ve realized that what really fuels me isn’t editing for others. It’s more so using those same skills to express something I actually care about.
That realization led me into a sabbatical during which I’ve gotten into YouTube and course creation. I’m building content around more niche, spiritual, and personal subjects. It’s been fulfilling in a way that cutting commercials or client reels never was. The problem is, I’m haunted by questions of long-term viability and sustainability. I know how to make money with editing in marketing, but returning to that world feels soul-sucking and mundane now. I have a long runway but I may have to go back to full time work eventually.
My passion has shifted from “the craft itself” to “using the craft as a vehicle for deeper meaning.” But with that shift has come ego fluctuation, doubt, and this nagging sense that I’m “doing life wrong” because I no longer feel lit up by what once paid the bills.
I’m curious if others here have gone through something similar, when your original passion morphs into something more niche or spiritually driven, and you’re left navigating the tension between expression and financial sustainability.
How did you handle that shift without feeling like you betrayed your younger self?