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u/Tv_land_man 1d ago
Why did this happen? Could be anything from a shitty supply of cocaine (most of it is garbage), brain chemistry changes, your break up or you are just coming down quickly. My guess is shit drugs and you building a tolerance.
I'm a cocaine addict in recovery and buddy let me tell you you need to quit while you are ahead. First, your brain is still developing and this has got to be quite possibly the worst thing to put into your developing system. Meth is probably #1 and my coke use got so expensive at times I would switch to meth. If you told me 10 year ago I would be a coke/meth head I would have laughed at you. Demoralization is a progressive issue but it hits quick.
You are creating and reinforcing terrible neuronal pathways that are going to make things like impulse control an issue down the line. Trust me on this, you are permanently damaging your brain and cognition for life. Brains can heal but the process is absolutely one of the most difficult things I've ever had to endure.
I used to smoke weed heavily from 15 to 25 or so and at 35 I wish I never touched it at least until I was 25. It induced an anxiety disorder in me that has controlled so much of my well-being. And that's just weed. Cocaine is just so much more intense.
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u/BobSagetLyfe 1d ago
This is how it traps you. The first few comedowns are always the easiest. It will only get worse from here. There is no way to stop it except for abstaining
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u/geezeeduzit 1d ago
Dude, just stop. You’re 18 using coke regularly, this is only going to end up 3 ways for you, jail, psych ward, or dead, possibly some combination of the 3.
Your body is telling you to stop and you’re looking for a work around because you’re already addicted.
Also, if you’re not testing your entire bag every time you get one, you’re going to die at some point. Fent is finding its way into everything, yes, including coke. It’s just a matter of time - you’re playing Russian roulette
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u/SubstantialArm751 21h ago
This is the cocaine comedown. Period. Quit now before it’s too late. I spent 15 years in active cocaine/crack addiction and it totally destroyed my life.. and I don’t just mean externally.. my mental state was absolute shit, I attempted suicide.. just a complete and total fucking mess. I’m 18 months off the shit and do serious self improvement work, therapy, psych meds, physical activity, etc…… or else I’d probably be dead.
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u/kgrmc 1d ago
Look up cocaine’s effects on the brain, as well as the come-down / withdrawal symptoms. “The comedown period from cocaine intensifies depressive symptoms.”
https://zinniahealth.com/substance-use/cocaine/brain
https://delamere.com/help-guides/drugs/cocaine-depression
Best thing to do is to stop using it. Truly, it’s not worth it. Good luck!
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u/theSpringZone 1d ago
Start snorting Bupropion and Escitalopram to go with your coke.
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u/Florida1974 20h ago
We don’t usually advocate for more drug use in the Sub. We don’t give tips how to make a better high. OP is barely an adult, the time to get out is now.
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u/theSpringZone 20h ago
It's a fucking joke. You really think I want someone to snort SNRIs or SSRIs?
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u/TwainVonnegut 19h ago
Check out Narcotics Anonymous, it saved my life!
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https://www.na.org/meetingsearch/
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Google “NANA 247” to find a marathon Zoom meeting that runs around the clock!
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