r/addiction • u/Soft_Plant_5176 • 1d ago

Discussion I think I’m getting addicted

i’ve been taking my brothers prescription dextroamphetamine and using it recently. i don’t have adhd or narcolepsy or anything for reference. it’s all i think about, i haven’t been able to go a day without it for a while. is an addiction to dexies actually intense, or is it like a “real” addiction? idk it doesnt feel like it

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u/Tv_land_man 1d ago

Are you stealing this from him? I'm not saying this to shame you because my brother was my roommate for a decade and he had a large drug collection that I would steal from. That made the addiction problems significantly worse for me since it came with intense shame. When you add this element of shame things get really destructive REALLY fast. If you are, it's very important you stop digging yourself a deeper and deeper hole.

Second, I personally think very very few people should actually be on this stuff. I don't for a second believe the pharma companies when they talk about it being a safe and necessary treatment and I take every person who says they need it with a massive grain of salt. I used to say that same thing. "I need it" was never true but once i got used to taking it, you're damn right I needed it. I've cut myself off and you damn well better believe that just about every single task I have to do feels like climbing Everest. I convinced myself and doctors I had ADHD when in reality I lacked discipline.

I started at 15 or so and there was no greater gateway drug on the planet. Adderall is no fucking joke and the second you start doubling your dose to get the extra boost you are in a lot of trouble. I never saw a future of me smoking meth but here we are and it would never have happened had I not gotten a taste of a high Adderall dose.

You came here because you sense you have a problem. Good on you for seeing it earlier. I highly suggest you stop. Cold turkey is just fine and is in fact the recommended method for amphetamines. Good luck to you and reach out if you need anything. I'd love to hear your life gets on a better path than mine

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u/UnitedObjective 1d ago

Same. Was put on Adderall at 10 yo and my insurance got cut at 18 and then went to full blown iv meth addiction for like 14 years. 4 months sober.

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u/kgrmc 1d ago

That’s awesome 4 months is amazing. I’m diagnosed add/adhd. Was addicted to adderall all throughout my 20s, and abused it. Quit for about 7-8 years, then my adhd symptoms were not manageable and I started taking it again. But didn’t have any desire to abuse— was only taking between 20-30mg per day. Although I think it led to my real problem now, coke. Almost every day. Finding it’s a lot harder to quit too.. :(

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u/tigershark_33 1d ago

I used to abuse adderall and use a lot of coke. I now am trying to moderate adderall - how were you able to moderate after previous abuse?