r/bipolar • u/Few_Success_5216 • 2d ago

Support Needed Living with severe bipolar 1 disorder

I was told by a psychiatrist a year ago that my bipolar disorder is severe and there's basically not too much medication can do. My previous psychiatrist said my only hope was an antipsychotic injection and that one didn't work. As of right now, I'm on the highest dose of all five of my medications. I do also have BPD, DID and the full name for this is mixed schizoaffective bipolar type 1. So I also experience psychosis and paranoia. My therapist said I've been through severe trauma and I have mental illness on both sides. It's hell living in my mind daily but I do what I can. I live on disability with my mom. No kids, no relationship. I am up late because I can't sleep, I need to go with my mom to her doctor appointment early this morning. The meds make me so tired. I am sedated just to live. I would greatly appreciate encouragement if you read this. I am so scared of talking about it with others because I've had many people manipulate, abuse and gaslighting me once they find out about my mental illness. I have trauma from that.

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u/Premiers2021 2d ago

Hang in there friend, they’re always working on new medications and treatments. Hope things improve for you.

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u/Few_Success_5216 2d ago

Thank you and that's right. Now they have injections that last six months lol that one really surprised me 🤣

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u/Premiers2021 1d ago

For example - do a google search for ‘poo transplant Australia bipolar’ and you’ll see that in Oz, they’re looking at fixing up our minds through our stomachs, and a couple of people have had successful interventions that have totally changed their lives and reduced the severity of the illness. It’s still early days with this research but it’s really promising and just one example of how new medications and treatment can be huge game changers for sufferers like us.