r/cancer • u/AnimalIllustrious736 • Jul 20 '25

Patient Terminally ill at 17. I'm scared.

I have Pontine Glioma. I just want to vent if that's okay. The world's so unfair, I didn't get to live my whole life yet. I'm just scared, I'm really scared. I won't get to see my siblings grow up, marry my girlfriend, make my parents retire... I don't want to die.

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u/SnooBeans3982 Jul 20 '25

I’ve actually never been better. It’s funny, other than the pain(which the meds are doing a pretty good job at controlling), once you accept that you’re dying, there isn’t really much to worry about anymore except enjoying your last days. I also don’t have a wife or kids or anything so things might be different for someone like that

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u/Vast-Marionberry-824 Jul 20 '25

@SnooBeans. I’m so gutted for both you and OP. I’m not where you are (yet) as treatment for stage 4 appendix cancer is working at the moment.

I came to terms upfront, on getting my diagnosis, with living a far shorter life. It was so helpful for me too to make peace with that. Time is so precious and we tend to waste it when it seems we have endless days stretching over the horizon. I know now not to do that. I too am enjoying each day as it comes at a lovely cruisy pace doing what I love doing within my limitations, and appreciating just being and spending time with loved ones. Not looking back or forward. Just focusing on the here and now.

I send you and OP lots of love and positive vibes ❤️‍🩹

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u/SnooBeans3982 Jul 21 '25

That’s the thing, we don’t have endless days stretching over the horizon. None of us do . But most people just don’t see it . Everyone thinks they’re gonna live until 90+, but that’s just not true. Even if they do, that’s just a blip in time in the grand scheme of things. If you would’ve told me two years ago that I’d be in hospice for lung cancer at 29, I would’ve thought you were crazy. Life‘s unpredictable, all we can do is just enjoy the time we have here and now

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u/danguapo 18d ago

I read through your posts, and I’m aware you are Muslim. I pray that you find and have the strength and the mental peace during this time, I know this is so hard man. Im pleading with you to find Christ and accept him as God. Jesus is God man, one with the Father and the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit revealed itself to me when I was at my lowest. Jesus died for our sins and took the punishment that all of us deserve, so that we may have eternal life man. He is the way and the only way, and the truth. You are being deceived brother, and I mean this out of pure love because I want you to be saved. I’m begging you