r/cancer • u/TheEvilSatanist • 18d ago

Patient Just got diagnosed

This weekend was absolute chaos and clusterfuck. I went to the ER on Saturday for what I thought was a persistent stomach bug.

After a CAT scan of my stomach and a battery of tests this weekend, I was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic cancer.

They did a biopsy Sunday, to see if they can determine where the cancer is coming from.

I also have another CAT scan coming up to see if it has expanded into my chest and lungs.

I really have no idea what I'm looking for, I'm still trying to process all this.

Also, I am a Satanist for a reason, so please save all the "just give it to God" or etc bc it's not something I personally believe in.

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u/Sea-Hamster7033 18d ago

So sorry for what you're going through.

I have a rare and aggressive form of cancer, and though I feel it comes from a good place, I don't like when people talk about god etc. either. If god is real he enabled people to get this disease, including kids.

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u/False-Spend1589 18d ago

Feel the same way! Stage 4 breast cancer over here. Still have people regularly tell me I’ll “beat it”, despite me plainly stating that’s not possible.

Hope they’re able to figure out your primary cancer quickly, so you can start the right treatment, good luck! Kick some cancer ass!

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u/urnage42 18d ago

Ugh, I even have nurses or other caregivers talking about beating it.

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u/JessMacNC 18d ago

This just happened to me today at my PCP. “Good thing you caught it early!” says the nurse. Yes I found a lump nine months after a normal mammogram and was Stage IV breast cancer from the jump. So, yay? Hey there friend! I just tell myself that people mean well…

OP, if you’re reading this, you’re in the worst of it. Not knowing and not having answers is a special kind of hell. Once you get information and a plan, and settle in, it won’t be such a shit show. Promise.

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u/Panther4533 17d ago

This is so true. I’m a stage four kidney cancer person. I’ve had eight lesions treated in my liver that spread from kidney cancer and going next month to treat four more. Incidentally, my friend asked me to bring him for an endoscopy and I happen to know the doctor because I’m in medical sales and she told me he had esophageal cancer. I spent the day with him telling him the same thing you just said day one is the worst. No plan. No info. Pure shock

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u/JessMacNC 17d ago

I didn’t believe anyone when they told me I was in the thick of the worst of it, and I don’t expect people in it to believe me either. But as you know, once I had my plan and got into the treatment, it was like a weight was lifted. Thinking of you and your friend.

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u/Panther4533 17d ago

Thank you. ❤️

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u/Spammy3333 14d ago

The not knowing was HORRID. Once I found out, even though it was rare, aggressive, and I had NO idea why I would have it (mesothelioma from asbestos), I felt like I could handle it. Thankfully mine was found in time. I'm in the best place I can be. I can be in thev1% who gets cured. 

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u/False-Spend1589 18d ago

Unfortunately, that doesn’t surprise me. People never cease to surprise me. I actually had a nurse that was there for my first mastectomy (initially misdiagnosed at a lower stage) send me a bunch of praying the cancer away and other crazy shit, and I had to like, stop speaking to her at all. She came in the day after my mastectomy and gave me a huge Bible. She had breast cancer herself, but not stage four, and just was literally a psycho.

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u/False-Spend1589 18d ago

Like “proof” stories of people who ate or prayed the cancer away.

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u/Kamelasa 18d ago

My neighbour works at the local cancer centre, I just learned. She also praises the use of healing singing bowls in the UK where she's from. Sure hope I don't run into her shinyhappy woo face during my upcoming treatments.

Also, here's an interesting short piece about death, "how doctors die." In short, they take it on the chin, but most people are just in denial. Sat Evg Post article

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u/False-Spend1589 18d ago

I also hope you don’t run into your neighbor, and if you do, I hope you’re able to remain as calm as possible in the cancer center, haha. Thank you for the link to the article, I’ll definitely check it out. I’ve always said that I prefer to be realistically optimistic about my own life/inevitable death with/from cancer.

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u/Kamelasa 18d ago

Yes, I'm practising my pleasant person act and meditating because I need my wits about me with these people who like to drop me through the cracks. I guess imagining running into her is good material for coming up with both jokes as well as how to approach it. My optimism consists of these statements: maybe I'll never have to work again and I can enjoy my remaining time, and if the pain is too much, I know how to remove myself from this life, so I won't have to take the lengthy and uncertain official route.

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u/False-Spend1589 18d ago

Just read that article. Have to add no CPR to my wishes, and update my mother, who I’m sure will be horrified. Honestly, it would probably kill me anyways, because my entire sternum and rib cage is full of cancer. I think that’s a great statement to have in your back pocket, and I definitely think it’ll keep your neighbor and her sound bowls the hell away from you.

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u/Kamelasa 18d ago

Another one I've seen is "do not resuscitate" or DNR - something different than just a heart issue. I'd rather not be kept in a coma for months/years, given that my life is utterly useless to me at that point and could well be very painful both mentally and physically.

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u/False-Spend1589 18d ago

My mom knows I don’t want that already. I’m fine to a point, but definitely not past that. Someone else close knows too, in case by some rare chance my mom passes first. And would let my Dad/sister know. My mom’s my POA though.

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u/False-Spend1589 18d ago

I’m sorry to hear you feel that way about your life, but even as a stranger, I certainly don’t want it to be painful to you either.

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u/Kamelasa 18d ago

I meant it's useless "at that point" that I'm in a coma. Thanks, though for not telling me my life is better than that and just accepting whta you thought I said.

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