Prognosis is worse than I thought

[u/No-Permit-9519]

Hi

I posted on here about a month ago, I had ended up in the hospital with fluid around my heart and my oncologist told me I had maybe 6 months-1 year to live. Well, on Saturday I wound up in the hospital again thinking it was the same problem. Turns out, the tumor next to my heart grew from 4cm to 13cm in the month I’ve been home, and it’s pushing on my heart & causing a lot of strain. The oncologist then explained that he had tried to be optimistic about my prognosis in July, but because of this development he thinks I have a few weeks left at most.

I’ve just been crying since I got home. I wanted more time with my family and friends. I feel so rushed now, all the plans I had just went down the toilet. Thank you to everyone who read my rants and gave me advice, I wish you all the best.

[u/NoTap7503]

I truly believe we have another journey after this life. what that is idk. I am also scared but I can't imagine ur feelings rn. u r loved and I wish u all the best on wherever your journey takes you ❤️

[u/Titizen_Kane → u/NoTap7503]

I believe this too, truly. And it helps. OP, it never hurts to get a second opinion, but either way, your choices and reaction is entirely justified♥️ there’s little rhyme or reason to so much of this, and so much is down to chance.

Not sure if this type of comment is allowed in the sub but I get ketamine infusions (under the care of a doctor), and that basically disconnects your brain and body while still being lucid enough for internal thoughts. The freedom and peace that I feel when my brain is no longer “tethered” to my body is incredible. I feel light and connected to whatever is beyond this life, but more than anything I feel a deep sense of peace and calm. I choose to believe that this is the experience we have when our physical form is shutting down, before our soul moves onto to its next journey.

You are very loved.

[u/Junior-Rutabaga-6592 → u/Titizen_Kane]

Ketamine is a wonderful treatment! I am on it for chronic pain and the way it puts the pain in the background of my mind has been life changing!

[u/Misskelleygirl → u/NoTap7503]

I believe this too... This is just a drop in our existence.

My Dad's passing (cancer) really helped me with the realization.

There's another place after this... ❤️

[u/NoTap7503 → u/Misskelleygirl]

rip to ur father ❤️ I've lost family and friends both humans and animals. I feel like they have a headstart and hopefully can help guide us in our passing. much love ❤️

[u/fixed_night_turn419 → u/NoTap7503]

I believe we have another journey waiting for us as well. You are loved and I want to wish you peace and time with your family. I hear your story, and it’s helping me to cope with cancer as well. I’ll remember you and your story. Thank you ❤️