Prognosis is worse than I thought

[u/No-Permit-9519]

Hi

I posted on here about a month ago, I had ended up in the hospital with fluid around my heart and my oncologist told me I had maybe 6 months-1 year to live. Well, on Saturday I wound up in the hospital again thinking it was the same problem. Turns out, the tumor next to my heart grew from 4cm to 13cm in the month I’ve been home, and it’s pushing on my heart & causing a lot of strain. The oncologist then explained that he had tried to be optimistic about my prognosis in July, but because of this development he thinks I have a few weeks left at most.

I’ve just been crying since I got home. I wanted more time with my family and friends. I feel so rushed now, all the plans I had just went down the toilet. Thank you to everyone who read my rants and gave me advice, I wish you all the best.

[u/WilliamofKC]

When my brother was near the end of his life, he seemed to focus on all of the people who went before him, including our grandparents, parents, aunts, uncles and our sister. He would also think about his friends that had passed away while they were still relatively young, as well as favorite actors and actresses that had gone before. He never belonged to a church or expressed any religious beliefs. I believe based on things he said and did, however, that he had a genuinely strong feeling that he would again be with the people in this life who he loved and who loved him. My brother was a good and kind person, and he certainly would deserve that. I do not have the character that my brother did, but I too believe he was right about what to expect.

I really hope that your doctors are wrong. I hope if a miracle is floating around out there, that it finds you. I also hope and believe when your time eventually comes, whether it is weeks, months or decades from now, that you are met with peace, warmth, joy and love that is beyond our limited imagination.