Lost Mom to pancreatic cancer

[u/Spiral_Rock99]

I’m 20 years old and horribly lost right now. Funeral was very recent. Just Dad, brother and I now. It feels like a chunk of my heart was ripped out and so much just does not make sense right now. This illness took everything from us and then some. My life feels like it is on hold still and maybe it will continue to feel like that over time; like I’m waiting for what my life was supposed to be. I know time heals and I have heard it over and over again but because of this illness my life is just never going to be the same without her. She had so much more to give and I had so much more I wanted to give back to her. I pray in the future the manner in which the disease is stalled, treated and maybe even cured becomes better. I think you never really understand until the disease touches you directly.

[u/Capital-9]

So sorry, I was completely lost when my mom died 18 years ago. The hurt fades, the memories stay. I wrote them down eventually. It helps me. I hope you’ll find what helps you.