I'm so confused

[u/Julesx23]

I just want to get this out, I'm not looking for advice or to fix what I feel. I just recently woke up from an induced coma, all due to severe seizures and, the truth is, a lot more happened, but I prefer not to lengthen the story. Today, my cancer and things don't even seem like the most serious thing anymore; (although it is) what really bothers me is how I feel inside. My mind and emotions are a mess: I feel totally out of place, I understand almost nothing of what is happening and, to make matters worse, I have the feeling that I forgot a lot of things that were previously my daily routine and my life...

It's like being in an unknown place, although in theory I should feel “safe” because there are people nearby, but I don't feel comfortable with anyone and I don't have anyone to turn to even for a hug to help me put a stop to all this. Paranoia invades me, my head keeps creating strange scenarios, stories that feel too real. I also started psychiatric medications and I feel that they are very strong, everything feels even more blurry. Honestly, I'm lost, completely adrift, and it's so hard for me to admit it out loud and I just wanted to express it at least in a place where I hope not to be judged, I'm not looking for anything more than to express myself... Thanks for reading.

[u/EitherPalpitation344]

It’s not just your mind acting up. I remember trying to explain to people I aged 20 years in one week when I was on treatment. It really felt that way and med staff just thought i was feeble.