Hello everyone, I didn’t want to feel alone in this situation but I wanted to know who is going through terminal stage and how are you coping? Thank you 🙏

Hey, I posted a couple days ago about starting chemo for AML (it’s been about two weeks). Things got really bad, and I wanted to update because I don’t really know anyone else who’s been through this. I ended up in septic shock, and the doctors said it’s life threatening.

It started with a small fever and feeling really weak. At first, I thought it was just chemo side effects, but it got worse really fast. My whole body started feeling off, and my feet even went purple. That part really freaked me out.

I’ve been in the hospital since, on IV antibiotics, fluids, and other treatments to try to stabilize me. I’m still not feeling much better yet everything is exhausting, and it’s scary how quickly something like this can get dangerous.

Chemo was already really hard, and now dealing with septic shock on top of it makes everything feel even more overwhelming. I just wanted to share this

I just want to get this out, I'm not looking for advice or to fix what I feel. I just recently woke up from an induced coma, all due to severe seizures and, the truth is, a lot more happened, but I prefer not to lengthen the story. Today, my cancer and things don't even seem like the most serious thing anymore; (although it is) what really bothers me is how I feel inside. My mind and emotions are a mess: I feel totally out of place, I understand almost nothing of what is happening and, to make matters worse, I have the feeling that I forgot a lot of things that were previously my daily routine and my life...

It's like being in an unknown place, although in theory I should feel “safe” because there are people nearby, but I don't feel comfortable with anyone and I don't have anyone to turn to even for a hug to help me put a stop to all this. Paranoia invades me, my head keeps creating strange scenarios, stories that feel too real. I also started psychiatric medications and I feel that they are very strong, everything feels even more blurry. Honestly, I'm lost, completely adrift, and it's so hard for me to admit it out loud and I just wanted to express it at least in a place where I hope not to be judged, I'm not looking for anything more than to express myself... Thanks for reading.

M21 I just finished what I called the burnout stage , of course I am happy but it all seems tooo much , too much missed study , too much missed “potential” you know when you think of what you could have achieved in all of the time you spent recovering , all the layers nights just sitting there staring at the ceiling not knowing what to do , all that effort if you had put it in anything Else..

I know I shouldn’t think like that but unfortunately I do and everyone keeps telling me (you are so hard on yourself) but I don’t get why Shouldn’t we improve??? What strong about just “surviving”

Every time I think like that I sink even Deeper and my thought become more depressing every time

If I can describe what i am feeling in one sentence it could be : I want to achieve so much “especially what I think I missed out on” in so little time while I am still trying to improve my general strength and so on

So what should I do what now? I am fixing my diet , started going to the gym , taking my meds , multivitamins and I still think it isn’t enough..I am still week ,I missed a lot in school all this stuff

Hello. So my mom is in remission for lung and brain cancer. Although she’s been dealing with her pancreatic cancer since fall. She’s been doing good. Except recently things have been really bad.

She doesn’t want to eat or drink. We’ve been getting her to drink ensure drinks and little meals. She fainted on Sunday.. stopped breathing for a bit. We took her to the ER at a Sanford location. They took her labs and everything was normal.. so they said they can’t admit her. Same thing happened yesterday too. Their excuse was “it’s a side effect of chemo.” I know this is not that.

She has lost about 30-40lbs in the last 6 weeks. She now has a hard time walking, going to the bathroom, etc. She is sleeping a lot. She threw up yesterday at the ER. All liquids, no chunks. I’m very scared that this is resembling end stage pancreatic cancer/failure. I don’t want her to die. I’m only 22. I need my mom.

Is there any way to get her admitted? Is there anything I can do for her to help her more than getting her to eat? Please help me.

Hey guys,

I just wanted to say at the start of this, i’m really not posting this to ask for sympathy or anyone to feel sorry for me etc. I’ve just turned 21, and I got over the fact I was diagnosed with cancer about 2 days in, and my mindset has just been getting through the treatment and staying positive throughout.

I’ve now completed the treatment, and am due to have a scan to get the official “cancer-free” in a few weeks, which i’m sure will be positive.

My problem is this. A lot of my self worth comes from my ability to play footy to a good level, I play at uni and in quite a good saturday team (not pro or anything but with a good group of players). The cancer has absolutely ravaged my body to be honest, i’ve put on about 8kgs of weight, lost all my muscle and pretty much all my fitness and ability on the ball after 6 months of no exercise and fighting this disease.

What this whole ordeal has given me is motivation, and a different level of it. I can’t explain how badly I want to get back to the fitness/ athleticism levels I was at pre-cancer, but I also really want to go above and beyond and push myself to play football to as high a standard as possible whilst i’m young and able to physically do so.

I guess what i’m really asking for is advice, or anyone with knowledge of recovering from an illness like this or just getting unfit players back in shape in both the most efficient and effective way possible. Whether it’s nutrition advice, advice to fix my body composition, advice for getting my technique back, anything AT ALL is welcome.

I will not let this beat me, but that doesn’t mean the recovery is going to be easy, so any advice/help at all is appreciated - even if it’s just pointing me towards the right people. I was tempted to reach out to some high level coaches on things like linkedin for some advice but thought this might be a bit unrealistic.

Just as a final note, i’m a centre-back who is 5’10, so I used to rely on my athletic ability and strength a lot in battles with taller strikers. My coach has been enquiring about converting me to a right back because he thought I had more to offer further up the pitch but not sure whether this will happen for a while now.

cheers lads - really really means a lot

Had a mate and his Mrs come over today to help us assemble our garden shed. I’d started it with the mrs but it ended up overwhelming us, primarily me. I get worn out in half an hour and we had shed panels around the yard for about a month.

Friends in need are friends indeed, we’ve been so well supported by our family, friends and local community. Like the local pool comp we play in gave us a very much appreciated cheque at the last presentation. We live well but frugally, our income is the Australian government’s disability support pension (DSP) which isn’t a hardship for us as home owners free of rent.

It’s funny, we’d always been home and Netflix people but made a conscious decision to put ourselves out there a few years back when we moved to build a house somewhere we could afford. When we built our house we decided to get a pool table and be a part of the local pool and snooker scene. We’ve got lifelong friends as a result and right at the time such relationships are needed.

We have great lives but the good is great because of other people. Friends that turn up.

First course of chemo & radio treatment appears to have failed, moving me from an 80+% survival rate category to < 20% (radio & chemo resistant oropharyngeal cancer). I made a living by talking, so being mute isn’t an option. I tried my first speaking heavy event early this month and it was a disaster.

As I was being put under this week for another biopsy, I found myself praying that I wouldn’t wake up. I was pretty disappointed when I did.

My ex wives have taken almost all of my savings. I’m in my 50s. I have no insurance. I’m unable to work consistently because of issues with my throat, pain & pain med side effects. My last remnants of retirement savings are rapidly being drained.

I really don’t want to spend the next 5 years living like this. I probably only have savings for 2 years anyway.

It may be selfish of me but “living for my kids” or “living for my girlfriend” isn’t motivating. It just feels like another burden.

How do you keep going?

I’m 20 years old and horribly lost right now. Funeral was very recent. Just Dad, brother and I now. It feels like a chunk of my heart was ripped out and so much just does not make sense right now. This illness took everything from us and then some. My life feels like it is on hold still and maybe it will continue to feel like that over time; like I’m waiting for what my life was supposed to be. I know time heals and I have heard it over and over again but because of this illness my life is just never going to be the same without her. She had so much more to give and I had so much more I wanted to give back to her. I pray in the future the manner in which the disease is stalled, treated and maybe even cured becomes better. I think you never really understand until the disease touches you directly.

So, 16 days ago i came back. It has been a busy few weeks since. But we have PROGRESS!

I have progressed from "well this sucks rocks" to "THIS F'N SUCKS ROCKS"....

Saw my surgeon monday. He has me on top of the cancellation list and slated for surgery in about 6 weeks. Saw my gyn tuesday since all of a sudden post menopausal me has a need for panty liners and i completely freaked. Had my PET wednesday.

My new onco doc thursday morning, she is nice. Found out that YEP, this cancer is fiesty, on the move, and got a referral to radiation onco doc.

So this a.m. they called me, and i got appointment an hour later.

I like this dude. I told him there was zero reason to be delicate or rely on duckbilled platitudes with me. So he was absolutely blunt about what radiation post surgery will entail.

And, he does believe it is in the lymph nodes. But not in the bone (yet).

Meanwhile, the 2 nurse navigators are seeing about a backup referral to Huntsman in Salt Lake if something crazy happens. Frankly i most definitely do not want a new surgeon at this stage.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, a friend sent prayers and a nice super soft oversized hoodie out of the blue.

And the nurse navigator cut some red tape and got me a dental appointment about the sudden and very ridiculous tooth infection. So i got antibiotics for that at least. Nothing like having a random tooth infection show up. Both me and my radiationonco are really side eying this, because literally in less than three weeks the part ofmy lower gum that still has teeth is getting way way sketchy.

The social worker lady is meeting with me about options for getting my hair chopped and made into a wig (just in case, ya know. They are now making noises about chemo/immunotherapy along with radiation depending on what my surgeon finds).

In the middke of all this madness we had company. And the mouth is disintegrating fast enough it will be puree and liquid time again shortly.

Thank god i have lots of magic mouthwash.

I am currently 120 days post stem cell transplant. I have absolutely no appetite. When I try to force myself to eat I end up feeling ill. I’ve lost about 20 lbs in the last month. At this point I’m not sure what to do? My oncologist believes that it’s all mental. I simply do not agree as I literally have no appetite even though I want to eat. Has anyone else experienced this?

I (25m) was just today diagnosed with testicular cancer. I’m still waiting for my test results to get back, but I understand that testicular cancer generally has a pretty good prognosis. That said, death is a possibility, and it’s hitting my girlfriend very hard. Anyone have any advice for helping her get through this?

Exciting Announcement:

Finally pregnant! It’s a Girl! Yay!

Ladies freeze your eggs before treatments it is so worth it!

I’m finally pregnant after wanting to be for 9 years! It was just one trauma after another for awhile. When my hubby and I first wanted a bab, my sister tragically died by suicide and I got PTSD because I found her with my mom and was in no healthy mental state to take care of a baby. Then I got brain cancer after that, and obviously wasn’t healthy then. Did IVF before treatments, and the 1st one didn’t implant and I was devastated because we only had 2 more chances (2 embryos left) and my husband didn’t want to adopt for silly reasons, so I was so devastated and depressed. Then I started doing my prayers and devotion everyday. Had two churches and family and friends pray for me, then I started having dreams from God and Jesus that I was pregnant and then not long after I had dreams of holding a baby girl!

Pregnant at 35! Been in remission for 1-2 years now. Left hand is still screwed up so I’m praying I can hold the baby safely and that the baby will make it through delivery.

Thank you Jesus! God is good l!

Today was a good news day. I received my MRI scan results for my GBM and there was no significant change in size inthe past 3 months! I never thought I would ever be excited for no change, but the chemo is doing its job and keeping it from growing and that is fine by me.

I'm 60 something days out from my second HDCT and stem cell transplant, and my AFP numbers went up again, in the low 100's. Did 4xBEP, 1xTIP and then the 2xHDCT+SCT. Looking at options. Every time it responds well, and then goes back up. I'm not interested im just giving up; they're looking at clinical trials, i'm willing to do that and more chemo. Anyone else experience this? If it responds and goes down, but then goes back up, does that still mean it's "refractive" or not? Because I thought that when it doesn't respond at all. I will say, that after it went back up after the initial 4xBEP, and went up to the 700 range, with just ONE round of VIP it went back down to the 100 range. We have some friends that are in the medical field and they suggested I tell my oncologist to reach out to Dr. Einhorn. I'm 24 years old. I'm not gonna give up this easily because it seems like that the treatments are working but just not completely enough. My pathology is 80% yolk sac, 10% seminoma and 10% teratoma. I was told several times that my pathology was very responsive to chemo and very curable, and it HAS been very responsive to chemo, but it just goes back up again. I don't understand.

Stage 4 nsclc w brain mets, diagnosed a few weeks ago, the thing i have learned so far is that the worst impact for me is teh loss of energy. I can live with pain, i can live with shortness of breath but days were i can barely get out of bed and prepare some food are the worst.

Life without energy is no life.

So what are your life hacks to maximize energy?

Good afternoon all! I am starting to feel the effects of my cancer taking over my body. I get tired easily. I get nauseous often and I am easily light headed or dizzy. Soon I will be bed ridden but until then you can’t stop me! F*** YOU CANCER. I

Today sucked, this week sucked, life generally sucks. I never thought life would look like this and neither did any of you. Just a note to say I’m proud of you for getting through the week and overcoming whatever challenges you had. You’re not alone. 🤍

Hi everyone, my father (55) was just diagnosed with lymphoma. I don’t know much but I know it’s in his lung and spleen. The first lump he noticed was in his neck. It grew. Then his armpit. He did not go to the doctor for months. He has always been irresponsible. He is an alcoholic and smokes 2 packs a day. Stage 2 diabetic 6 feet tall and around 270 or more. Eats like crap and treats his body like crap. No exercise at all.

I’m upset. I’m upset because for 7 years, since my daughter was born and I chose sobriety I have tried to get him on board. I help them go to rehab. I helped them with money and rides. I did everything I could and he made zero effort. I even asked to take out a life insurance policy years ago so we could bury him, he told me “your f***** for trying to profit off my death” which I understand was projection and something he would clearly do.

I’m just, upset. Sad sure, mad for sure. I don’t know what or if this will kill him. I’m not sure how to feel. I just needed to vent. Sorry if this is not the place for that.

I been having some nodes in my right breast and took 4 mammograms and 3 biopsies to realize that's its cancer. I just barely got the call and I thought I was prepared for this call. I wasn't, I dont even know how to react or what to say. I mean reading through the test results it seems to be aggressive and growing fast,but I dont know what that means. What hurts me most is that I have 2 children, 15 and 13. Like how did you or someone you know react and what was next steps? Please I just want to know or hear even though my outcome can be different