First infant code

[u/Content-Ninja-2478]

Had my first infant code the other day. Home birth that didn’t go well, 39 weeks, Nuchal cord, baby was grey at arrival, continued to work baby for approx 40ish mins, asystole the whole time. A very short moment of silence for babe and No debrief. I feel like the baby deserved more than that. I still feel sick about it. I called my hospitals counseling services and broke down.. I just wish we debriefed as a team, I know it’s busy in the ER and we have to pick up and move on but idk. I don’t even know if baby was boy or girl since it had a diaper on.. that also bothers me. This sucks

[u/Loud-Principle-7922]

Its supposed to suck. Feeling this way after something so traumatizing is normal. Please try to find someone to talk to, even if it’s just us. My DM is open if you need to vent.

You did great work for that kid, 40 minutes is so much, physically and emotionally. No one could’ve changed the outcome.