Hey guys, R1 EM here
Today I saw case of a middle aged female with previous breast cancer that was triple negative, she was treated almost with chemo almost 3 times and had a mastectomy, and she is waiting for a prophylactic mastectomy to the other breast. Her last chemotherapy session was like 7 months ago.
She came to the ED complaining of floaters in the Left eye for the past 2 months. It progressed into floaters with headache, that is not her usual, but it was controllable with tylenol and a nap, like it is very minimal, but a new thing to her. she went to an optometrist, she was told that this is an “eye migraine”, which was weird at the beginning, but then I understood that they were meaning “Migraine with aura”. Exam was unremarkable, no neurological deficit, good visual acuity and normal EOM and pupils are reactive with no RAPD.
It made sense, it is typical for migraine with aura, it is controllable, no neurological deficit or visual changes, the patient finished her chemotherapy 7 months ago so she is in remission, notes form her team says she is doing well. But, the patient was very stressed and crying as she was afraid that it could be recurrence. What I did is I told her that chances of getting a recurrence are very slim, but since you are in the ED, I will just check your latest CT head and consider doing one if the last one was remote, but I reassured her that most likely it is a migraine thing and I will do the CT just to facilitate her follow up with neurology later on.
I went back to her chart; last CT head was 2 years ago, so I thought I will just do this one in the ED and then outpatient neurologist follow up, easy peasy.
Results came back, shockingly a new mass with vasogenic effect in the Rt. occipital area causing all this symptoms in the Lt. eye, but no midline shift.
It was not what I expected, I was humbled. My staff was amazed that “WOW, how did you get it? This is an amazing catch!", and I got very good evaluation for it
However, I was sad inside, like, why did I just reassured her that much in the beginning? I could not even go back to her, I just called her oncologist to come and see her, I could not look at her eyes and tell her that my reassurance was BS and now you have your cancer back, good luck!
I am good at telling people that your relative is dead, because now you do not need to explain a lot, nothing more can be done, but for those patients? it is hard, especially as I fucked up with the aggressive reassurance that "meh-there is nothing", because they will have a lot of questions that I really do not know how to answer.
My take up listen today; do not underestimate even the low-chances DDx, yes I had to to reassure my patient that I will do my best, but not that nothing is wrong with them and we are doing things just as protocol, I have to be honest and sincere in my explanation.
I know I did good in catching it, but I do not like my way of the reassurance.
I just had to relieve this gelt out of my chest.
How do you guys deal with these uncertainties in terms of communication with your patients?
What would you do if you fucked up like me? :(