I ended up in the hospital on 7/25 for hemorrhaging that I couldn’t control. I was given Provera and sent to my local OBGYN on 7/28 and had a biopsy. On August 1st at 1:04 am, I found out I had Adenocarcinoma of the endometrium, endometrioid type, FIGO grade 1. The wait has been agonizing.
My first appointment with the James Cancer Center in Columbus, Ohio, was on 8/22, which is exactly 21 days after I found out what happened. The dr ordered CT scans, but isn’t this wonderful, the insurance company said it can take 14 business days to approve them. On top of this, my surgery date is 9/10, and no one can get me in for a CT before this point.
On top of all the waiting, which only makes things worse for me, I am very weak. The Provera used to stop the bleeding puts me in a coma, and I’m only taking 10 mg instead of the 20 mg I am prescribed, or I would be out cold all day. I like my dr, but I am PETRIFIED.
First, I weigh 344 and have a BMI of 67, so I am a high risk patient. He told me he would try. He said the robotic procedure is the best chance because there’s little blood loss, and my hemoglobin is already low at 10, and less time under anesthesia. He told me they use the Trendelenburg method and I will be 30-40 degrees on my head so they can fill me up with gas.
Here's the problem. When they use the Trendelenburg method and you’re obese, they find that it shifts a lot of weight to your lungs and heart, causing further complications. He said that they may have trouble keeping my oxygen at a good level. So, he said if my oxygen drops, they will do a D&C and an IUD because it also treats cancer.
I am so upset. First, everything is about my weight, and I know I am a big girl. I have lost over 70 lbs as it is, so I am trying. I hate that I may have to just get an IUD and let this monster stay inside my body. While it says I am a FIGO 1, everyone knows it can be anything when they open you up. It could have started somewhere else and there are just so many variables.
The waiting game is so hard. I just keep thinking that I don’t want to leave this earth yet. My parents are older, and I don’t want to go before them, as it would crush them. I keep hearing about the risks, and they act like I am just at death’s door. I would love to hear from anyone else. I am tired of bleeding all the time, but I feel like I want to run away. I am 50 years old, and I have never had an operation in my life. I’ve never even taken a pain pill or more than one Aleve. Now they’re going to be giving me steroids, insulin, and all this stuff when I have such a hard time with meds anyway?
I could really use some encouragement because I feel like I am just waiting to die! ☹