r/randomactsofkindness • u/thatsillybootie • 10d ago
Story Thanks random family at the spring. Who knows where I'll be if it's wasn't for yall.
I've been on this sub for about hour crying and thought I'll end my time on reddit for tonight by sharing a story of my own.
Triggers: SI
So I struggle with wanting to end my own existence on this planet quite often. Usually the mood is extra heighten around my birthday. This year I told myself even if I feel like to still go out and do something for it. So I settle on going to a spring in my state, although I'm not a good swimmer and I don't my own transportation, I went anyway.
As I getting closer to the spring everything is going wrong, ya know. But I was able to make into the actual spring itself. As I was walking on the path thinking strange behind thoughts a dude comes up & casually talks to me about himself and the spring we were at. He was able to help me get settled on my tube that I rent and give me the push to go sail down the spring. He gets in started to swim then when others are getting to swim as well he leaves me alone. So I'm there in my own world and unsure how I will be able to make it back to the house when I get out the river. Unsure if I even wanted too.
I spend the majority of that time by myself thinking many things but SI is definitely coming to the forefront. I could just jump out the tube and nothing will happen. They were nearly closing when I went so not many people will be even checking the spring to see if I need any help. Well there goes the landing spot with the trail on getting back to the park. You just have to timed it just right to be able to make there on those steps. Well I'm a thinkin' daydreaming and miss those steps. So since another opening of the springs is close they have tied off for you to keep floating down it. But the water is much too deep for a non swimmer to get the steps. So I'm spinning and floating in a circle for about 5-10 mins thinking "I'm incredibly dumb this is still obviously true and you need to just to try to get back to the steps in any fashion" So as im trying my damnset with my umbrella to not give in to temptation a lone family comes down the springs. The dad notice my clown behind and that I need help. So he swims to me to pull me to the steps but im an obviously dumb ass and when I get just to the steps, I push back off and float away in the corner again. This time im determine to not accept the help give to me or futher embarrassed myself too late so I try to muster up courage I said aloud "don't worry about me. I'll make it. I can't be stuck out here on my bday." The man and kids pull me back in very much not listening to my first sentence and only focusing on the latter. I thanked them profusely and apologized more times than I can count. The wife sing me happy birthday whiling I was getting out the tube and helping me out. The kids said happy birthday endless and waving to me until we came back to the parking lot. Then as they were driving away wish me luck on my birthdays. I hope they always continue to spread sunshine and happiness.
P.S. The rest of day was ish but they do bring a smile to my face when I think about the risks I took that day. I hope I will be able to remember their happiness for me when I don't feel it worthy of being alive especially on that day of all days from now on. Sorry for any grammatical errors and/or spelling mistakes. I'm mad dyslexic.
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u/takes_care 10d ago
That is so sweet and this sub is great because it really affirms that the small kindnesses also matter. I'm glad you're still here with us.
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u/snotrocket2space 10d ago
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SILLYBOOTIE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! Im glad you’re alive. I hope you continue to seek joy and accept help. You deserve both <3
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u/-SiRReN- 9d ago
Happy birthday! Hearing this story I imagine my 3 year old and when he finds out it is someone's birthday he gets so excited! Birthdays are for celebrating, he thinks, and he will immediately grill the person. "It's your birthday? Will you have cake? Happy birthday!"
On your next birthday, think about how excited kids get for them, and buy yourself a treat if you can afford it. I hope you are well ThatSillyBootie, and that you have many birthdays ahead of you.
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u/azrendelmare 9d ago
Others have already said it, but happy birthday. Life can be hard to manage, sometimes very hard, but there are wonderful things like that family out there, too! I offer you warm internet hugs! 🫂
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u/MILeft 9d ago
The biggest accomplishment that you can work on before next year’s birthday is a list of at least one thing to be grateful for each day. Write it down at the end of the day . Then, on next year’s birthday, take the time to read through the list one item at a time —out loud.
All those days to list what you’re grateful for will give you some insight into what matters most to you. Having gratitude —for simple things—can be enough to get you through the struggle.
I’m cheering for you! An attitude of gratitude can save your life, but it can also make the day easier for others. Then you can see that you are doing something to make the world a better place.
Back in the past century, we used to say “Give peace a chance.”
That’s a plea that never grows old.
Even if you have doubts about it, give peace a chance. Peace of mind. Peace on earth. You can influence it all, just by your mood and interactions with other humans.
I will be rooting for you !
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u/Eana34 9d ago
Oh babe, birthdays are the worst for a lot of us. I have a friend (my bestie's other bestie) that I have known for (fuck I'm getting old) 15 yrs. No clue when their bday is. The mutual bestie does know, but per request NEVER shares it.
I have had more terrible bdays than good ones, nearly 40 to sort through, but the handful of good ones really shine. This year I didn't get what I wanted, but I did get to feed a tiger! The point is, even if the one day a year to celebrate yourself happens to turn into a crap day, you're still worth celebrating!!
So glad you're still here! I do hope that you find a safe and healthy way to process and clear all that is holding you back. If you were meant to punch your exit ticket that day, that family wouldn't have even seen you. You have a greater purpose and the world clearly still needs YOU!
Hang in there!
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u/Scary_Progress_8858 9d ago
Happy birthday and many many more with peace of mind and a joyous heart
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u/QueenSaphire-0412 9d ago
Happy Birthday 🎉 I’m SO glad You’re HERE!!! Things have a funny way of working out in a way we don’t expect. Not always the way we plan, but in ways that make us stop and think…. And sometimes make us stop and smile. Just truly SO Glad you’re here! Happy HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🎂🎊🎉!!!!! Just saying early for NEXT YEAR! Please remember this… air hugs OP
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u/musesx9 9d ago
Boy! Oh, boy! I am so glad you are here. Wow! I want you to know that you finding joy in someone else's actions means you have faith and you have hope! You accepted their help and you accepted their words and kind wishes. Most importantly, you ARE hope personified. You are a life source that reminds us all how crazy and not-random life is. Your story made me feel something inside that is joyful. Thank you. If nothing else, you brought joy to a family and to me. Surely that must be worth something? Thank you.
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u/gimme-shiny 8d ago
before I read this, what does SI mean? the trigger warning isn't helpful with just an acronym
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