r/stopdrinking • u/Doughnut91 • 8d ago
Rock bottom
I believe I might have urinated on my carpet last night by my bed - and I don't even remember doing it at all. This is a rock bottom moment for me. I have had enough of this shit.
I had 5 glasses of wine last night which is actually nowhere near as much as I've had in the past - yet now I feel like I can't even trust myself with one.
I've tried moderation, tried 3 nights a week with no booze, avoiding higher-percentage alcohol - none of it works. No more 'pledges', no more limitations, no more 'setting goals' or 'just one' - it's total sobriety for me now. I cannot do this anymore.
I know it's going to be a rough road but I believe I have been given two paths now. I know which path I am going to choose.
Day 1.
IWNDWYT.
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u/Fine-Branch-7122 499 days 8d ago
Welcome. I made all sorts of silly promises that i never kept. Lean into all the help that works for you. The plotting and planning of moderation for me was exhausting. I think I spent more time analyzing,worrying,regretting my drinking when I was in moderation. I know I can’t moderate. I’ve tested the theory many many times. Embrace the not drinking today - especially in the beginning. Reach out for the help you need. Iwndwyt
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u/pokey-4321 10 days 8d ago
Right here with you, our stories may be a little different, but we all want to be done with this shit. I tried the moderation as well, it may work for some it will not work for me. Good luck.
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u/Corvus-Nepenthe 101 days 6d ago
For some reason this brings to mind the saying “You have two lives. The second one begins the moment you realize you only have one.”
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u/Slipacre 13888 days 8d ago
The good news is that it will turn out to be easier not to drink that to keep digging that bottom deeper. At some point it can just become a way of life and alcohol, like dish washing soap, just another liquid you don't drink