Being genderfluid is such a weird experience

[u/Abrene]

Being fluid when it comes to your gender means different things for different people. For me I didn’t think I was, I thought I was a binary tran man. Then I decided to be a feminine trans man, then I started feeling more nonbinary due to me liking both aspects of the gender spectrum before finally realizing I am gender fluid.

It never really hit, having periods where I feel like a man, woman, and something in-between. Like the whole of last year I would feel triggered by being referred to as a woman, acknowledging my female anatomy, or anything remotely related to womanhood. I was even conflicted about being a femme trans man.

But for the past few months: idk. It’s not that I want to detransition, but I am now in my woman phase again. Being misgendered/referred to with feminine terms does nothing to me, but I still acknowledge that I’m trans. This may make no sense to most people (and honestly? Sometimes it makes little sense to me.) But it’s the only thing that makes sense for my situation.

I’ve accepted that I don’t think I’m binary trans anymore. I’m comfortable with switching between gender identities and pronouns. I wonder if anyone else can relate to this or if I’m just weird lol.

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[u/Jwruth]

I can mostly relate, except my "phases" are much looser. Like, I feel like I change pretty frequently, and there's rarely a clear boundary around it. Like, for example, if I'm feeling pulled towards being masc, I'm still also feeling pulled in every other direction; it's just that the pull towards masc is winning ever so slightly.

It's like looking into an ever-changing kaleidoscope; at times, some colors will be more dominant, but all the colors are still there.

[u/Sophia_Y_T]

Yes! I feel exactly the same but from the other side lol. I'm MTF, been on HRT for a year. I can pretty much echo exactly what you're saying.

[u/the-wastrel]

I can relate. Being misgendered as she/her doesn't hurt as much lately, even though I know I still use he/they. I'm also less worried about my chest than usual.