Angry at work

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So can anyone offer advice I feel so angry and struggling to get past it

For the past 18 months I’ve had some severe symptoms vomiting daily intense nausea diarrhoea and abdominal pain I’ve had multiple tests and they couldn’t find anything however the consultant I’m under suggested it may be my gallbladder I’m still awaiting a tests for that.

A few weeks ago I was off work due to haveing dizziness severe pain and sickness I ended up collapsing at home and being taken into hospital with gallstones and a infected gallbladder during this time my aunt phoned work who honestly weren’t happy I was off and were quite snappy at my aunt who gave it back I know the manager she spoke to and I was already expecting her to be pissed off I was calling in sick.

I was meant to work the Mon Tues Wednesday and Saturday Sunday however I was booked on holiday weds sat and sun and only called in sick for the Mon and Tuesday no one from work contacted me all week and I stupidly thinking it would be okay I have holiday booked thought I didn’t have to get in touch with them. The day before I did go back to work I got a email basically saying they cancelled my holiday and they want a sick note and any other hospital letters confused I questioned why a sick note they explained about cancelling my holiday I did try to fight them on this but they said oh it’s policy that you signed I’ve since looked at the policy I signed it doesn’t say anything about it I let it go even though I was upset I let it go.

I came back to work and have been told because my Bradford factor score is 1078 they can dismiss me and they suggest I bring in hospital letters bear in my mind every hospital appointment I’ve had I’ve brought in a letter for. I’ve been sat at home stressing and crying and more sick then ever due to this stress I’m now under. I do suffer with nasty flares where I litreally can’t get off the toilet and I’m too much pain to go into work and stand on my feet for 12 hours which is how my Bradford score has climbed I’m on a stage 1 already.

I’ve since been told I’ve got a colleague who’s been off sick for the first half of August then had holiday booked that she’s been on holiday abroad for the past four weeks I’m angry and so livid and upset I questioned if she was getting her holiday paid they said yes she is I asked why when it’s the same circumstances as me I was told we can’t prove she’s lied about being sick even though there’s photos of her abroad all over Facebook I’m so angry and upset I can’t stop thinking about it it’s made me hate my manager who I’ve worked for the past 6 years and never had any issues how can I get past this? I’m even at a point I don’t care if I’m dismissed I just want it over with I’m not sure how I’ll be able to keep working here with everything that’s happened.

Sorry for the long post I feel like I’ve needed to get it all out if I’m honest.